In the midst of our Lord’s passion, Peter denied knowing Jesus three times. In today’s Gospel, we hear Peter affirm his love for Jesus three times. Three denials, three affirmations of love. St. Augustine commented that Jesus asks Peter three times so that he who had thrice denied through fear might thrice confess through love. 

How many times have I, like Peter, denied Jesus through fear? I lead a well-blessed life and I have never feared for my life, but I have denied Jesus through fear. There was the time I was working in an area dominated by another faith and was warned to tuck my crucifix into my sweater so they wouldn’t know I was Catholic. I am sad to say, I complied. I have watched something happen that I knew was wrong, but I didn’t speak up out of fear of being ridiculed or laughed at. I have seen someone in need, but I told myself it wasn’t safe in this day and age to stop and help. 

Knowing that I have acted out of fear, I can choose now to act out of love. How do I make this change? How can love overcome fear? In order to be prepared to choose love at the moment of decision, we need to prepare our will to choose the good. This is not something we can consistently do from our own strength or desire. We need to be open to God’s grace. We are given all the grace we need to follow Jesus at our baptism, but that grace is like a wrapped gift. We must take the time to unwrap and open the gift in order to enjoy the benefits. 

We unwrap the gift of grace when…

  • we encounter Him in the Sacrament of Reconciliation. We can take all of those times we acted out of fear to Him and He will wipe the slate clean. This opens us up to the grace to behave differently in the future. 
  • we humble ourselves to pray on our knees. This gives God’s grace the room to work within us. So rather than just mumbling my evening prayers as I drop off to sleep, I can actually kneel by my bed, evoking with my body the humility I desire in my soul. 
  • we practice putting others first. Let someone go ahead of you in line at the grocery store, let that car in on the highway on ramp, open the door for someone. These tiny, seemingly insignificant acts predispose our will to act in love when the choices are tougher. 

Dear Lord, help me today, right now, to turn away from acting in fear and like Peter, choose instead to affirm my love for you over and over.

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St. Bernardine of Siena

St. Bernardine of Siena

Feast date: May 20
The Catholic Church honors St. Bernardine of Siena on May 20. A Franciscan friar and preacher, St. Bernardine is known as “the Apostle of Italy” for his efforts to revive the country’s Catholic faith during the 15th century.Bernardine Albizeschi was born to upper-class parents in the Italian republic of Siena during 1380. Misfortune soon entered the boy’s life when he lost his mother at age three and his father four years later. His aunt Diana cared for him afterward, and taught him to seek consolation and security by trusting in God. Even at a young age, Bernardine demonstrated a remarkable concern for the poor as an outgrowth of his love for God. Having become accustomed to fasting, he preferred at times to go without any food in order to help someone in greater need. From the ages of 11 to 17 he focused on his studies, developing the eloquence and dedication that would serve his future work as an evangelist. Before becoming a preacher, however, Bernardine spent several years ministering to the sick and dying. He enrolled in a religious association that served at a hospital in the town of Scala, and applied himself to this work from 1397 to 1400. During that time, a severe plague broke out in Siena, causing a crisis that would eventually lead to the young man taking charge of the entire hospital. Inside its walls, up to 20 people were dying each day from an illness that also killed many of the hospital workers. The staff was decimated and new victims were coming in constantly.Bernardine persuaded 12 young men to help him continue the work of the hospital, which he took over for a period of four months. Although the plague did not infect him, the exhausting work left him weak and he contracted a different sickness that kept him in bed for four months. After recovering, he spent over a year caring for his aunt Bartholomaea before her death. Then the 22-year-old Bernardine moved to a small house outside the city, where he began to discern God’s will for his future through prayer and fasting. He eventually chose to join the Franciscans of the Strict Observance in 1403, embracing an austere life focused on poverty and humility. During this time, while praying before a crucifix, Bernardine heard Christ say to him: “My son, behold me hanging upon a cross. If you love me, or desire to imitate me, be also fastened naked to your cross and follow me. Thus you will assuredly find me.” After Bernardine was ordained a priest, his superiors commissioned him to preach as a missionary to the Italians who were falling away from their Catholic faith. The Dominican evangelist St. Vincent Ferrer, just before leaving Italy, preached a sermon in which he predicted that one of his listeners would continue his work among the Italians –  a prophecy Bernardine heard in person, and went on to fulfill.Bernardine’s personal devotion to God, which amazed even the strict Franciscans, made his preaching extremely effective. He moved his hearers to abandon their vices, turn back to God, and make peace with one another. He promoted devotion to the name of Jesus as a simple and effective means of recalling God’s love at all times. When other priests consulted him for advice, Bernardine gave them a simple rule: “In all your actions, seek in the first place the kingdom of God and his glory. Direct all you do purely to his honor. Persevere in brotherly charity, and practice first all that you desire to teach others.”“By this means,” he said, “the Holy Spirit will be your master, and will give you such wisdom and such a tongue that no adversary will be able to stand against you.” Bernardine’s own life attested to this source of strength in the face of trials. He patiently suffered an accusation of heresy –  which Pope Martin V judged to be false – and refused to abandon his bold preaching when a nobleman threatened him with death.But Bernardine was also widely admired throughout Italy, and he was offered the office of a bishop on three occasions. Each time, however, he turned down the position, choosing to fulfill the prediction of St. Vincent Ferrer through his missionary work. Bernardine preached throughout most of Italy several times over, and even managed to reconcile members of its warring political factions. Later in his life, Bernardine served for five years as the Vicar General for his Franciscan order, and revived the practice of its strict rule of life. Then in 1444, forty years after he first entered religious life, Bernardine became sick while traveling. He continued to preach, but soon lost his strength and his voice. St. Bernardine of Siena died on May 20, 1444. Only six years later, in 1450, Pope Nicholas V canonized him as a saint.